A peaceful midnight watching streaming video from outside through inside. Without noticing my phone was ringing, i guess that is the "alpha" sign to my summon from beloved.
The call was made from Ms. Pinnacle & a sms was received by questioning my late night condition. I was about to return her call but my call leaves no one to answer it. So I decided 2nd attempt & she finally answered it but she was so sleepy & tiring, so I better to let her have a beauty sweet night sleep.
Early sunday morning. Without deliberate thoughts & any permission I called Ms. Pinnacle at 9a.m. just to remind her to wake up early & attend church. But she replied that don't have to attend today.
Oh My GOD!! I just disturbed her for the 2ND TIME!!! It's like the worst & dreadful MISTAKES I'd ever make!!! Bleeding from my heart... Sigh~ I should be more careful in making a decisive decision.. Now I so regret for what I'd done. Sorrow, is the best word to describe my worst now. Sigh.
But I remembered what had Mr. PIC told me.
"Even you facing the worst of the worst, our spirit will despair, our soul will perish & our mind will lost. But we mustn't let the negatives to live within us for a long period, we must quickly get rid of those & evolve our immaturity to veteran. In that way we'll success in future shortly. What had happened is past instead of forget & ignore it, we'll learn from it & don't let ourselves repeat the same mistake anymore!"
Sigh again. Usually after disturbing my friends from meeting Morpheus, I'll just ignore them, like acting "isn't my business for not getting enough sleep". But this time is totally different karma, after Ms. Pinnacle awake from sleep, she's just can't get back to sleep immediately. I felt so GUILTY!! I felt so UNCOMFORTABLE!! I felt myself so IRRITATING!! Sigh. I guess that's the feeling towards someone whom we love? :'(
Guess I'll receive a very EXPENSIVE summon from Ms. Pinnacle.. Plus a DEMERIT some more :'(
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