Ms. Pinnacle Gave Me A Summon!!

A peaceful midnight watching streaming video from outside through inside. Without noticing my phone was ringing, i guess that is the "alpha" sign to my summon from beloved.

The call was made from Ms. Pinnacle & a sms was received by questioning my late night condition. I was about to return her call but my call leaves no one to answer it. So I decided 2nd attempt & she finally answered it but she was so sleepy & tiring, so I better to let her have a beauty sweet night sleep.

Early sunday morning. Without deliberate thoughts & any permission I called Ms. Pinnacle at 9a.m. just to remind her to wake up early & attend church. But she replied that don't have to attend today.

Oh My GOD!! I just disturbed her for the 2ND TIME!!! It's like the worst & dreadful MISTAKES I'd ever make!!! Bleeding from my heart... Sigh~ I should be more careful in making a decisive decision.. Now I so regret for what I'd done. Sorrow, is the best word to describe my worst now. Sigh.

But I remembered what had Mr. PIC told me.

"Even you facing the worst of the worst, our spirit will despair, our soul will perish & our mind will lost. But we mustn't let the negatives to live within us for a long period, we must quickly get rid of those & evolve our immaturity to veteran. In that way we'll success in future shortly. What had happened is past instead of forget & ignore it, we'll learn from it & don't let ourselves repeat the same mistake anymore!"

Sigh again. Usually after disturbing my friends from meeting Morpheus, I'll just ignore them, like acting "isn't my business for not getting enough sleep". But this time is totally different karma, after Ms. Pinnacle awake from sleep, she's just can't get back to sleep immediately. I felt so GUILTY!! I felt so UNCOMFORTABLE!! I felt myself so IRRITATING!! Sigh. I guess that's the feeling towards someone whom we love? :'(

Guess I'll receive a very EXPENSIVE summon from Ms. Pinnacle.. Plus a DEMERIT some more :'(

Mr. Zenith Enlightening 2~~

Mr. Zenith came again & told me the differences between.. Passions & attractions.

Sometimes people often asked another being "why do you like me?" or "why do you love me?". S/he will answer 2 types of answer which is "the feelings" or "the personalities".

"Personalities", we answered because of you pretty, handsome, cute, lovely, caring, sweet voices, nice skin tone, brilliant, excellent, elegant, sexy, muscular, bla bla bla... All of those just attractions to make you liking to someone. I wonder, every personalities will have their own expiries time & when the expiries occur... Will we still attract to that being as usual as we do???

But when we answered "Don't know", this is a definite answer to someone's life. My theory tells me that "Love Is Blind", we like/ love someone without any deliberate thoughts.. We just follow our feelings & passionate within our very own soul. Our passive... It's like a lady shopping in the mall everyday. A small boy ask his parent to buy some toys for him. A smoker enjoy a cigarette after every meal.

We sure know if we love someone deeply, we'll accept all of their bad habits, weaknesses, worsts... Whatever you dislike. If we are truly love our dearest, we'll try to join them instead of change them or controlling them.

The keys to eternal happiness isn't "Force" but it was "Will", willing to accept, willing to change ourselves instead of changing them to suit with us, willingly to sacrifice..

If we wanting to change others so desperately, others will thought the same. In the end Mr. Stubborn will exists & create a catastrophe in our relationship. This is just going to suffer both parties.

But willingly to change ourselves & sacrifices for dearest, a treasurable love just might happens! ^o^